look at every day?

dont know if ill ever see this.

what matters:
family, time with mom, with grandpa, with brothers.
accomplishing something, not wasting time on games like i do. there are others who play no games, but what do they do without the instant gratification from games?
learn buisness, or maintain apartment, or start painting buisness for mom, or real estate listing

questions:
where use is school when i have no job connections. testla, space with deke, 

current habits i have are games, masturbating, looking at girls and lusting, not being social, and possibly lazy exercise.
close-mindedness, and fear of learning things i think are hard.
i cant focus on anything that is hard. i immediately distract myself. cant focus on hard english or physics. on top of that i have back pain.
why cant i focus? it cant be that hard,  why procrastinate?

photoshop ideas/test. put ben and arthur on adult bodies, put robot arms.