now

how could i plan everything? i need to go to class then yoga. but i will be hungry. how do i mitigate that?
i could eat first
or bring food
or eat and bring a snack

i dont want to be here. i am bored.

i need to ask about a class. ask about astronomy. but i dont think it would matter because the class i currently am in i could be wiht emily. unless she fucking doersnt go to class. then it would suck

i came early. i had nothing to do. i felt proto-depressed. that feeling is frequent. i try light cbt to change it. it is only half effective

later
i felt bad an hour ago at the library. now i feel fine. why did that happen
at the end i felt horny. but that didnt matter compared to how i felt before
end
dad asked me "did you take off the porn on the computer" my mind was instantly angered, but i said nothing. i did not deal with it. until two minutes i remembered it doesnt matter. what he says does not matter. i am taking it personally. i should not. i should just do whatever i can to decieve him since his demand is not reasonable. at least i think. i hope i think right.