let me try to fade away. theres a penetrating hunger. just hunger. it masks the sadness and hurt. my heart and more of my mind are broken. torn, but not in pieces. it is too frequent. or as usual not frequent enough. i want to sleep. but i wont. i need to deal with my thought. ive already forgotten too much.
too many t...hings to do. i will stick to one. that is all. but there is more to be said. i cannot describe

i am thinking. but the thinking never leads me anywhere. does being bored in a sorta...[proto?] college environment accomplish anything? right now im just thinking about how i wanna get laid. isnt that awesome. hey everyone, im desperate. ill do an old guy right now. or old girl... wheeeeewww. im thinking that this situation i am in right now does not promote htought. sucks about that

herrro

10:49pmMe

hows ur umbererra

10:50pmIvan

very good thank you

you left me 

10:51pmMe

uhh

at least emily had one of her most sad moments in her life

i told her to say bye

10:52pmIvan

yeah she was lying sad moment ...june 8th

10:52pmMe

u didnt come back

wahts the 8th

10:52pmIvan

i had class !!!

umm i leave

10:52pmMe

oh

ull be with her for a whole year next year

more time

if u really want u guys could get a summer job together

10:53pmIvan

i live in LA

haha

10:53pmMe

if u really want to see eachother

how do u spell enginuetive

10:54pmIvan

what

10:54pmMe

ingenuitive

10:55pmIvan

umm ingenuitive?

ahahah

ingenuity

10:56pmMe

yah

10:57pmIvan

kitty

10:59pmMe

ive got one

she is fat

11:00pmIvan

hahah

i dont want to do my homework

11:01pmMe

then dont

and fail

11:01pmIvan

this is the last week we saw each other haha

11:01pmMe

thats how it works right

11:01pmIvan

no!

11:01pmMe

last week?

11:01pmIvan

yes

i leave on tuesday

11:01pmMe

sucks

bye bye

see u next year

11:02pmIvan

yeah maybe not even then

11:03pmMe

why

11:03pmIvan

idk ....

11:04pmMe

fine dont tell me

11:08pmIvan

fine i wont

11:08pmMe

ok bye